Well, here it is, my very first blog post! As I was preparing for my website to get up and running, I realized that I need to write an actual post. I was thinking of things that I wanted to write about but this is the first post so I kinda wanted to make it special.
I was thinking that I would do a body positive post because it is summer and all the hubba-balu about bikini season and being ashamed of your body is real. As I was starting to do some research on body positivity, I was becoming more and more aware of things that I had never even considered being negative towards the body positivity movement. So after this realization, I figured that I should figure out what I want to define as my body positivity views before sharing it with the world.
The second topic I considered writing about was why I need feminism. I spent a whole afternoon defining why I need feminism. I came up with a lot of reasons I just couldn’t figure out how I wanted to write about it. This topic didn’t get too far into being planned because I could not figure out the way I wanted to present it.
So here we are with the first post and two topics that I am not writing about at this time (do not worry I will, just in the future). So what is this post going to be about? Well as I sat drinking beer with one of my good friends and they were asking me about what I plan on writing about for my first blog post, I responded with what I had explained above. They responded with ” I think being honest is a good thing for your blog”. And there I thought, yes I will make my first blog post about myself and be honest about me. Literally my friends really never know what goes on in my life or when I am having a bad day because I like to keep that information to myself. One of my other good friends actually called me out on it recently when I was having a mentally bad day.
Now that I have told you about the post lets get down to learning about me and my insecurities. I hate looking vulnerable, especially now with my recent revelations about life. I do not like showing parts of me that I feel could be used against me. I am a badass bitch who doesn’t take shit from no one. If I am crying, something has truly touched me, I am extremely angry ( just ask my partner, our fights always have my tears being spilled), or I am in physical pain. I have always been this way. I don’t like romantic comedies because the unrealisticness of it might trigger me to cry. When I was younger I remember being told to suck it up, maybe this has formed this wall around me but who knows?
I think that part of the reason I do keep things to myself is that I am a confident, don’t take no shit badass and if I show my weaker aspects then I don’t feel like that person. Another reason that I don’t share a lot about myself is that I don’t want to look for pitty. This seems harsh but I have had one life-altering event happen in my life, and when something as drastic as what I had gone through happens, you realize that life is never as bad as it seems. Yes, I may have had a shitty day or maybe I cannot do something because money is a bit tight, but I now realize that there are people out there who have it much worse than me and that I can do something about my situation. I have walked away from my life changing event a better person who looks at the world quite different from most people. Does this make me more guarded and have a little less tolerance for people complaining? Yes, but I am coming to terms with it and trying to ease myself into being better at opening up and maybe having a bit more sympathy for others who don’t view life the way I do.
On a more positive note, other things to know about me are that I love animals! Almost all of them (there are a few that I dislike but not many). I have a stupid amount of knowledge about animals as well. I also enjoy listening to people and taking in their experiences with life. If I am in a conversation with two or more people, I tend to take the backseat and just listen. I absorb the words that they are saying and really digest them. I am a bit shyer when it comes to meeting new people, but once I am comfortable with you, look out, you got sass coming your way!
I do truly love myself the way I am, and I know that I am an amazing person (conceded much?). So there you go, my first blog post all about me!