It is that time again! You can smell the pumpkin spice in the air…. along with a bit of a brisk wind. It is fall! which is this bitches favorite season! ( I wear my basic bitch-ness proudly). Naturally I had to make a list of things that are a must for the season!

  1. Get a Pumpkin Spice latte (but not from Starbucks)

Yes this is number one one my list! When I was in college I had countdowns till Starbucks would release this coffee again. Now in recent years I have found that if I order it, it is just too sweet ( if I get it, it is half sweet). With the popularity of this drink I have found it in more and more local coffee shops which is awesome! They tend to be not as sweet and I get to support a local coffee shop!

a tree that has started to shed its leaves. At the top of the tree the leaves are baren, middle of the tree the leaves are orange and at the bottom the leaves are yellow.

2. Going for a walk on the University grounds/ by the river

So this one may not be accessible for everyone, but if possible get out and do it. If you don’t live near a body of water or a university, go wherever there are trees with leaves changing colour. The smell of the leaves with that cold air filling your lungs is magical.

a picture of 2 jack-o-lanterns with grinning smiles across the front

3. Carve a pumpkin

This one I tend to leave to the week-ish before halloween so the pumpkins make it. I have now made it a tradition for my partner and I to carve pumpkins and this year people will actually get to see them. It is our first halloween in our house so I am very excited for this.

4. Play in the leaves

Ugg this one is just to appease the child in me. I love kicking around a pile of leaves. That crunch of the leaves under your boots is just awesome. Do expect a picture of me playing in leaves on Instagram….

a red two-wick candle is burning it smells like apple balsam.

5. Get a fall themed candle

not going to lie, I had one of these mid August. I live for all the smells of fall. I have a Apple candle going as I write this. Going along with my theme of shopping local I also got a candle from Coal and Canary, a candle company from Winnipeg.

6. Eat Pumpkin Pie

There is only one appropriate time to eat pumpkin pie and it is fall. If you don’t like pumpkin pie… GTFO. Just kidding. I have always loved pumpkin pie and probably forever will. Also Canadian thanksgiving is in October, so it is synonymous with that. This year I may also try and make my own? I am not usually a baking type but maybe I will have to give it a try.

a few pumpkins in a field ready to be picked

7. Visit a pumpkin patch

This one is a tradition for my friends and I, and I cannot wait till we can possibly go to one this year? (thanks COVID). I like to make a photo shoot of it so we dress very fall-ish.

8. Having one last fire

This one is usually the one to usher in fall officially. I love sitting by a warm ass fire with a blanket wrapped around me with just my nose poking out and the tip being cold.

9. Make a soup

ok this one may sound weird but hear me out. I normally hate soup ( except for a very specific one) But when fall rolls around and the weather being more moody than normal I seem to want soup. I have for the past few years been trying to make the perfect butternut squash soup. I have yet to get it but I will attempt yet again this year. Who knows, maybe a recipe will come out of it. I also have another type of soup pinned that I am wanting to try. I will report back with my findings.

a picture of two glasses of mulled wine sitting on a star tray. Behind them is two christmas gifts and some pinecones
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10. Make mulled wine or apple cider

This one I am just starting as a tradition. I made some mulled wine for my friends-mas last year and it was delicious and mad the house smell amazing. So naturally I will have to make it again or maybe I will try my hand at apple cider.

a picture of Devan holding a tiny pumpkin. She has a brown leather jacket on and her big reversible scarf

And that is my 10 things that I have to do for fall. I truly enjoy doing all of these because there is just something different about fall. The way it smells, the way it washes over me and bring about a calmness. It is also not 35 degrees celcius so I am not sweat out liters of water, so that is a bonus.

Like I had said on previous posts expect an influx in the fall posts. I have a few ideas in mind just have to execute them.

Until next time


Hello all! and welcome to another bomb list of a blog post!

Ever since COVID-19 happened and shut down/forced people to work from home I found that my productivity and motivation plummeted. Like really dropped off.

I would wake-up have my coffee, mosey my way to my home office and half ass do my work. When the day ended and supper was done, I would go lay on the couch or in bed. That was on repeat for months! It got to the point where I just felt shitty. I knew I had to make better decisions.

So I sat down and thought about all the things that made me feel good or when I was more productive what I had done to get into that mindset.

So here is my list of things you can do when you want to be productive that have helped me.

picture of Devan walking down a gravel road in Saskatchewan looking like an album cover


This is one that is like hands down the best. I remember when I was in school on the mornings that I worked out, I always got more done. I also carried myself differently. I didn’t shy away from asking questions about school work I thought might be dumb.

It was the same thing when I would go for a walk in the morning before work. I got the blood pumping and the endorphins doing their thing. At work I never second guessed asking my boss questions that might be stupid. SO the pattern became clear, moving my body in the morning helped me get into the headspace to get stuff done.


photo from the top of a coffee cup with coffee in it. The cup sits upon a white table with a plant to the left of it. Some leaves are reaching over the cup of coffee.

This one seems silly but I feel like it helps. There was a few weeks where my partner bought the wrong coffee. For those few weeks I was not as productive. Maybe it was because I wasn’t drinking as much coffee because I hated the taste of it maybe it was because my morning was starting off on a sour note. Either way I knew I had to fix this. Coffee time is my wake-up time, so if I can make it a good experience I will have a better day and will be much more positive and productive


There are days where I am a lazy ass and don’t shower in the morning or maybe I decided to shower at night. I can say that showering in the morning is like an extra bonus to a new day. Fresh start to a day and a clean body, look out world I am coming for you! I have found that this has helped me overall have a great day. I feel fresh and my mind is fresh to get stuff done.


photo of Devan in her PJs on the couch with an unimpressed look on her face while holding a cup of coffee in a mug that says looking sharp with a cactus

Yes that means you will have to wake up earlier then maybe you want to, but if you can give yourself that peaceful time before going to work / doing whatever you will thank-yourself. On the days where I didn’t give myself the time to wake-up and process it was morning, I was usually very distracted at work. On a good chunk of the rushed days I would forget something at home, usually my lunch, which would cost me more money cause I am not making it through the day with no food. Now I know that this isn’t always a possibility if you have kids or are a night owl, but it is something that I have found to make my mental space better to have a productive day.


I don’t know about you but I am very list oriented. I make a lot of lists. My desk is often full of many different lists. This is how I organize my life. Having one of them be what I want to accomplish in a day is awesome. It doesn’t have to be some huge ass list of things that need to be done but just a few items. Have just a few items can help you slowly make that overwhelming list more doable. Even if it is just three thing, it is three things that I have to get done in the day. If I want to accomplish more so be it, but if I want to end at that list I can. Having a list like this makes it so much easier for me to get things done because I look at the list and figure “hey I can do these three things no problem.” When it is a large ass list, I want to go curl up in my bed and then do nothing.


photo of a person sitting on a bed with a glass of water
Photo by Daria Shevtsova

Before my coffee in the morning I drink a glass of water, first off to help get my vitamins down second get give my body some hydration and get the gears going. Doing this in the morning has just helped me and my body. After 8 hours of no water, the body appreciated it. It also helps me get to my daily hydration goals…. oh btw have you drank your water today?


This seems weird but I find it very beneficial. I have been actively making this apart of my daily routine and it has made my life SOOOO much better. Normally I would save cleaning up the house to Saturdays. It would take me half the day to just tidy the house. In my most recent book I read (Atomic Habits review coming soon) this is called resetting the room. This means when you leave a room you put it back exactly how it was. Now all I have to do is really wash the floors, vacuum, and clean the bathrooms on Saturday. This is saving me SO MUCH TIME!!!! So much more time for activities and getting bigger projects done. I know that this one doesn’t really work if you have kids but even if you do it some of the time I am sure it will make your life easier.


photo of a white sweater, rust coloured shirt and lacey bra set out on a bed with a few accessories
Photo by Taryn Elliott

This helps me out so fucking much. I get my coffee set up so it is brewed for when I wake-up. I have my lunch made and ready to go. I have my clothing set out and ready to go. Doing all of this helps my morning go so much smoother and I am less likely to forget my stuff. It really does make for a smoother day. This one kind of goes with enjoy your morning routine. when the decisions and hard work is done before your mind is free to think about other things like the stuff on that to-do list!

photo of two mac monitors with work on them. They sit upon a wood desk
Photo by Tranmautritam

So there it is, everything that I do to make sure that I have a productive day. I have found that even doing a few of these things just helps me get into the right headspace to tackle my day.

I hope that some things on this list are helpful to you. If you have something that helps you be productive in a day let me know in the comments! I am always looking for things to help me.

Until next time!


Another book down! And now I am starting to get the books that everyone was reading when the Black Lives Matter movement was at its peak (btws there are still things going on and there is still the fight against racism check out my blog post about it)

On my list of many books by black author I am glad I got to read this one first. It was a short book, but was so concise.

So a little bit about Austin Channing Brown, She is a writer, media producer, and speaker. Her career is amazing and really just leaves me inspired. If you have the time look her up, I think she is an amazing person and I am so glad that she does the work that she does.

OK so onto the book. This book is Austin’s encounters with racism at different stages of her life. You start out in her childhood and how she grapples with living in a predominantly white neighborhood. Eventually you make it up to adulthood and how Austin embraces her blackness and is out in the world fighting racism.

Even though this book was short, it was good. Austin brought many things that I did not consider to light. One of the things I just need to quote.

I am not impressed that slavery was abolished or that Jim Crow ended. I feel no need to pat America on the back for these “achievements”. This is how it always should have been. Many call it progress, but I do not think it is praiseworthy that only within the last generation did America reach the baseline for human decency.

I can’t tell you what page that was on because it was not on the screen capture, but really that quote just really drove home this issue. Racism should not even be a thing, but it is and we should not be congratulating people on treating others with kindness. That should be the standard.

Another thing that I never really thought of was basically airing your past racist tendencies to Black people. Basically looking for forgiveness or that it is “ok”. They don’t want to hear you confessions, show them you are better by doing better now. What is in the past is in the past.

Overall this was a great book. It is short and shows a whole lifetime of dealing with racism. Austin brough many great points and I think this would be a great book to read for anyone. Definitely a 5 star book.

So yea def a good read and cannot wait to read more and learn more! Let me know in the comments what books you have been reading and what you have learnt from them!

Next week I will be writing about my closet and how it has changed so keep your eyes peeled for that!

until next time!


Hello all! It has been a while since I actually wrote something that was not a book review, but I come with some awesome stuff to check out while or if you are traveling in south Saskatchewan.

I really have not gone to southern Saskatchewan other than to visit friends in Regina. So when I was casually just looking at things to do in Saskatchewan (thanks COVID-19) I found some awesome places that I knew I had to visit.

Now that I have some spare time on my hands, I decided to go on a solo road trip and visit all of these places that I wanted to go to.

I will say there is probably way more stuff to do in southern Sask, but I was a girl on a mission to get to all these places in just a few days so here is my list.

1. The Great Sand Hills

In Saskatchewan, there are two super sandy areas. One being accessible by plane that are the Athabasca Sand Dunes. Then there is the Great Sand Hills which are accessible by car.

There are a few hills here I believe, I only adventured the one because it was 33 degrees Celsius out, I am a little fatty whose cardio is horrendous and I was fucking warm.

I will say that the one hill I climbed was amazing! The sand was so soft! It was exactly like some beaches in Cuba.

There was a family there who just came out to play in the sand for the day and I thought that was the cutest thing. It is just one big sand box.

2. Grotto Gardens

This stop is just outside Maple Creek and it is definitely an awesome place to stop. There is a restaurant to order food and a little gift shop to get some local goods. But the best thing about this place is the goats!

There were some other animals there too but I felt like the goats were the main animals. there is a little area where you can go and pet the goats and feed them. There is feed available for 25 cents I believe.

There is a whole goat apparatus here so you get to watch the goats climb up top where you can also feed them by a pulley system. On Sundays they do have goat yoga, which would be awesome to go to, if I didn’t live 4 hours away.

The whole area here is really awesome and beautiful and is definitely worth a stop if you are near by.

3. Cypress Hills Interprovincial Park

this is at Bald Butte

The number one reason that I was stopping here was because it is a dark sky preserve. I love looking at the stars and if you are away from any light pollution, the night sky looks so fucking amazing! It really just makes you feel small and knowing that the universe is so big is quite emotional ( for me at least)

So the original reason I was coming to Cypress Hills was for the night sky, but once I arrived my literal first reaction was holy shit this place is gorgeous! The park is just massive amount of trees. I was like this feels like BC because of all the trees and slight hills.

this was the view just outside my room

Actually there are two parts of the interprovincial park. There is the centre block and the west block on the Saskatchewan side. The centre block is more like a tourist area. There are Cabins you can rent, lots of camping areas, and a few other things.

The west block has a few notable areas to also check out. When I entered the west block, you are driving up quite the hill surrounded by trees again and many curves and swerves (aka BC like). Overall I will be going back and hopefully spend more than a night there.

4. Conglomerate Cliffs

overlooking the valley standing on the edge of the cliffs

I never thought I would see such a breathtaking landscape in Saskatchewan! But I did. These cliffs are super accessible by car and are just amazing. You overlook Adams Lake and the rolling hills. The cliffs can be found in the west block of Cypress Hills. All I can say is if you have a chance visit this spot, the photos are not doing it justice.

There is also the Hidden Conglomerate Cliffs, which require a hike. I fully intended to go to them, but once I started I soon found out that it was much more of a vertical hike than I was capable of. That with the fear of hiking alone and the warning of cougars (low but still a possibility) I decided that I would come back another time, with others for encouragement and safety.

5. Castle Butte (Big Muddy)

The best way to describe Big Muddy is like this, You know the big red rock that stands alone in Australia? Also known as Ayers Rock or Uluru. It is like that but not nearly as big or square and not in Australia. It is kind of like that. This is really an awesome stop. You are surrounded by rolling hills where you can see the layers of rocks that formed it. You can also climb Big Muddy if you feel obligated to do so. I was watching people coming down from the top and they were basically sliding down on their asses because it was such a steep path. So with that I was like NOPE and just walked around the rock.

So these are all the places that I hit on my small solo road trip. I will say take your time and stop in at other places becuase between all of these places and then back to Saskatoon it was 1500km.

There are a few small towns in Saskatchewan that have interesting pieces of art that the town boasts as their thing. I stopped in Leader, Saskatchewan because they had a huge adirondack chair ( I tried sitting in it but it was very sloped and my sandals were not having it.)

me in front of the big adirondack chair

So here are some places to visit if you are in south Saskatchewan or are just looking for something to go and see. It was an awesome trip overall and I highly recommend all of these spots.

Is there somewhere in south Saskatchewan that I didn’t mention? Let me know in the comments!

until next time!


It has been a few weeks since the world found out about the tragic murder of George Floyd and Breonna Taylor (and others) at the hands of the police. This erupted the world in protests and a call to make a change is so many ways.

Over the past weeks I have really been diving into listening to black voices and really listening to their experiences ( I feel like a lot of people have been doing this). I have always tried to be anti-racist but at the same time I was part of a system that upheld many societal norms and said nothing. These past few weeks have been very eye opening.

Now that things have died down and I have seen many of the people that I follow just go back to normal life while there are still horrific acts of racism happening.

The movement Black Lives Matter has be around for a while and was started by 3 amazing Black Womxn. Their names are Alicia Garza, Patrisse Cullors, and Opal Tometi. They started this movement in 2013. I implore you to read into the movement and what it stands for because it is very important.

What really got me was I saw someone post something along the lines of “if you are silent you are complicit.” When I saw that I was like OMG I have been complicit my entire fucking life! I have never used my voice to make moves. There is a certain power I have as a white woman (ahem white privilege) that I need to be using to help others.

So I have been learning, following, and believing all of these black people. I have been working on correcting things that can be harmful to others.

I have learnt a lot just from changing who I follow on Instagram (my main social media place). My feed was filled with 90% white people. The other 10% was black people and a few other people of colour. I figured I need to diversify my feed. I need to follow more black people, more disabled people, more indigenous people, more of people who don’t look like me.

I believe that we all need to create the change that we want to see in the world. For me that change is starting to change me. I need to actively be doing work to make changes. This includes having discussions that will be uncomfortable.

Somethings that you can do to make changes are:

  • donate to causes that you feel need help (if you can)
  • read books by authors that are not like you
  • speak with your money (if you can)
  • sign petitions
  • share information that you feel will be helpful
  • use your voice and speak to others about racist tendencies
  • change words that you use (There are a lot of words/wording that is harmful)
  • actually listen to people when they bring up things that you may have done that can be harmful.

I would also like to put out there to NOT be messaging black people about a lot of things. With this movement, a lot of people have turned to the Black community and basically expected them to spoon feed us the information. There are many other resources out there for us to use from Black people who have been at for this for years. Literally google it, look at hashtags to try and get a better understanding, read a fucking book by a black person. There are black people out there who are racism educators and they might have links to things that are beneficial, but if they are offering a class or information, make sure to pay them! Black woman should not have to put in all this extra labour for free in a society that treats them like shit. This is a white person problem. We need to make the changes. They did not ask for this, but for some reason white people took it upon themselves to make white people “superior”.

The fight still continues for all minorities in this world. We need to change our ways and fix this fucked up system. I hope that you can take it upon you to make some changes. You won’t be perfect at first but it is a start.

29 things that I learnt from my 29 years

Hello! look at me go, two blog posts in one week! I am really making up for lost time! But in all seriousness, I had planned to post this one the week before my birthday (oops). When that time came I didn’t have my list together nor did I have the motivation to write anything.

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So this weekend I drank 3 coffees and put in the work. At first I was like I have learnt so much in my 29 year ( like how to be a human) that I would have no problem making a list of 29 things. Then I got to thinking, I want to make this better then just things that most people know. I want to make this a list of things that will benefit people.

So here you go 29 things that I have learnt in my 29 years.

  1. Your worth is not based on your looks

You worth has never been about how you look but for some reason that is how I was raised.

2. When people say you can’t do something it is showing their limits not yours.

I have been told many times that I can’t do things. Well I can and the only thing stopping me is myself. Just because others can’t do something doesn’t mean you can’t… prove it to them.

3. Material goods won’t make you happy

This one I learnt the hard way. You can have as much shit as you want and you might feel a temporary happiness but it will soon go away.

4. Don’t worry about what others thing of you

honestly if you care more about what others think then how you feel you won’t find happiness. DO YOU BOO. others opinion don’t matter.

5. You have to give respect to get respect

you have to start off giving respect. Once they start disrespecting you then you should peace out. Also respect you elders is Bullshit, they need to respect you too.

6. Don’t let the fear of others thoughts stop you from living your life

don’t be scared to wear a bikini because of what others might think. other probably don’t care and if they do they are a piece of SHIT. This also goes for other things you might be holding back on.

7. Ask dumb questions

if you are thinking the dumb question there are probably others who think it too. Also if it helps you understand something better is it really a dumb question?

8. Own up to your mistakes

I learnt this one earlier in my life. So what you fucked up. Everyone does at some point, we are all learning.

9. All daunting things can be done

you don’t get everything done all at once. It takes many little steps to get to that goal.

10. Move your body

move it everyday. be it stretching, walking, or yoga just move it.

11. Listen to your body

don’t push yourself further then you can physically can go. It won’t end well.

12. Think outside the box

people who think outside of the box or go above and beyond are the ones that have amazing ideas / projects. I was always jealous of those people before I figured this out.

13. The worst they can say is no

I always think of this when I am doing/ asking something. If I am nervous or scared I think the worst they can say is no.

14. Crying doesn’t make you weak

growing up I always though crying made you look weak but it doesn’t. it shows that you feel things which is a human trait, why hide it?

15. Listen to your gut

your intuition is such a strong thing. make sure you listen to it. It can save you a lot of time and trouble.

16. Speak kindly to yourself

I use to never speak kindly to myself. I would tear myself down all the time. Why? I am a Human and I am the one human I am around all the time. I don’t speak to my friends like that so why am I doing it to myself?

17. Don’t take yourself too serious

sometimes you have to laugh at yourself. I do a lot of dumb shit, and i am not embarrassed of it. I just laugh and remember not to take myself too seriously.

18. You don’t have to do what society tells you

if you know me you know I am all about this one. Just because society tells me I should do something doesn’t mean I have to. I actually will probably do a 180 and run to the complete opposite.

19. Let yourself feel things

feel things because it is so mentally and physically freeing. You lean so much about yourself when you allow yourself to feel.

20. Talking is a powerful tool

words are one of the more important ways we communicate and it is a powerful thing. Always be conscious about what you are saying and how you are saying it.

21. Sometimes you have to take a risk

risks can be scary but sometime they are worth it. If you feel that it is worth it take that risk.

22. Invest in yourself

if you know that something will make you happy or make you feel better, you should invest in it. The initial cost will be worth it if it helps you get to a better place.

23. Be weird

everyone is weird in their own way. Just because you may not be what society deems as “normal” doesn’t mean you are not awesome. Fuck what society tells us. No one is the ideal person NO ONE!

24. Make time for yourself

always make time for yourself. If it is self care or just being a vegetable on the couch for a few hours. You need it! You cannot pour from an empty cup.

25. Don’t get lost in comparison

don’t compare yourself to others. You cannot see what they are hiding or what they went through to get to where they are.

26. Be kind

always try to be kind even if the other person is being a twatwaffle. The world needs more kindness.

27. Give it your best

your best might very from situation to situation but if you believe you are doing your best that is all that matters.

28. The answer is always no if you don’t ask

always ask, you never know what the result will be.

29. Question things

sometimes asking why is the most freeing thing. When someone has to break down why they do something it can show you a lot.

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So there you have it 29 things that I have learnt in my 29 years! I hope that you got some paradigm shifting notions from it. Let me know if you did or some things that you have learnt in you lifetime! I am very excited to make a whole new list for my 30 things in 30 years, I better start working on it now so It will actually be ready for the week of my birthday!

you know what…..social isolation is teaching me things

so the world is a mess with COVID-19. Canada especially has been taking the social isolation seriously, which is good don’t get me wrong, it just sucks. There is nothing more that I want to do than be sitting on a pubs patio basking in the sun as a waitress brings me multiple glasses of local beers. Given it just snowed a fuck ton the other day, still that is what I want.

So I have been working from home for about a week now, and honestly I am loving it. I literally roll out of bed, make a coffee, and go sit on my computer and do my HVAC thing. My boobs have never felt such freedom and they are loving it!

As much as my boobs and I are loving this work from home, I am hating the social distancing and not leaving my house unless I have to. It truly sucks. I am use to hanging out with my friends weekly. Usually on the weekends, my friends and I get together and hang out. Damn I miss that. My Saturday nights with friends have been replaced with video chats (which are not the same).

So at the beginning of this whole thing (in Canada) I was sad, which is normal. Also my partner and I blindly jumped into getting a dog. This did not end well. The dog was very high energy and we could not keep up. So we also had that upset early on.

Once I got over the heartbreak of having to take a dog back to the SPCA, I decided that I need to fill my time with something other than mindless tv. So I have been doing a few things. I have been watching youtube cooking channels, my personal favorite is Joshua Weissman. I originally found him on tic tok and loved his videos and then I found him on youtube and he has taught me so much. I am now determined to make the most amazing pizza!

Another thing that I will be doing is re-teaching myself calculus. I am very thankful that the library has closed and isn’t taking books back cause I have yet to start. I have also heard (I have’t checked it out yet) that some universities such as MIT, have released online courses that you can learn for free. Like you don’t get a degree but it will help to understand if you are planning to go back to school or if you just want to learn.

so in this whole isolation, I am learning things. I am learning not to take things for granted because you will miss them. I am learning how to make pizza, and I am re-learning calculus.

let me know how you days are going through the COVID-19 Pandemic? How are you making the time pass? Let me know in the comments!

Tushy review (is it worth it?)

First things first… what is a tushy? Well it is a brand of attachable bidet. So essentially it is an attachment to your toilet that shoots water up your butt to clean it. It is suppose to wash away anything that has been left behind on your behind🤣

So if you know me, you know I have no prob talking about my bowels. If you don’t know me…. I will openly talk about my bowels and their movements.

So some back story. For the past 2 years I have had horrible digestive issues. TMI I know but I warned you that I talk openly about this shit… literally. I’ve been to the doctor and had tests done, there is nothing out of the ordinary. So now I just have to eat a ridiculous amount of fiber which doesn’t always happen on the regular.

So with the bidet, it washes away all the mess which is great so I don’t have to wipe and wipe and wipe ( literally taking forever)

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So on to the review. I ordered the bidet full on thinking that I would hate it and regret my purchase. It was a very foreign concept to me and I am not usually up for new things but I was literally at my breaking point cause I always felt “unclean”. So I ordered it in hopes that it would solve my issues in the bathroom.

I ordered the Tushy spa which has the warm and cold water attachments. With this one you can control the warmth of the water which is nice. Not necessary but nice. For the first bit we only had the cold water on because our house is dumb. There were many roadblocks preventing me from having warm water for my butt. However, I am impatient so we got the cold water going and I took it for a test drive. The cold water was a wake-up call for the butthole but not too unpleasant to stop me from using it. Every time I use it you can hear me go “woo” from the bathroom from the shock of the cold water.

So the actual install was pretty easy. There is adjustable parts so that you can move it around so the nozzle is in the centre of the toilet. I likes that once the tushy was delivered you got an email that had a video with instructions in which can be handy.

One thing I was concerned about was the nozzle being clean but there is also a knob that you turn and it has water flow over to clean it. But honestly I thought it would get covered in shit and it really doesn’t. There is a toggle that allows you to move the nozzle so you can move it around to get the right angle for your butthole. Or if you like you can do a swiping motion on your butt, making sure you get everything.

Overall I give the tushy an 11/10. Easy installation, works amazing, makes me feel super clean, and is pretty for a bidet. Also the packaging was very minimal and was all recyclable. I honestly could not ask for a better experience and product.

If you were considering getting a bidet get this one. I think after the conversion it can to 155.00 CAD, which I didn’t think was too bad.

So in the end, Tushy has literally changed my life. I feel so much cleaner after my bad digestive days. So everyone should get a Tushy, they are awesome!



Most people don’t know this but Valentine’s day is my favorite holiday. Not because I love getting flowers are being showered in gifts but because I love the color pink, there are hearts everywhere, and cinnamon hearts are readily available ( I eat these until i am literally in pain).

I am not much of a gift person myself and my partner and I don’t celebrate Valentine’s day, but I thought I would put together a list of things that are nice to give to someone special. These can be used for Valentine’s day or for any gifting event. I would also Like to say that you don’t NEED to buy something. Just having a day where you can show your appreciation of your partner, I think, is a great gift. But if you want to give a physical gift I think these ideas are a nice meaningful gift.

A plush of a late pet (or current pet)

picture from shelterpups.com

I don’t know if you know this but you can buy a smaller felt ( the one I purchased was at least) stuffed animal of your pet. There are many other things you can get of your pet but lets be real a mini version of you best friend? Who wouldn’t want that? I actually got this for my partner’s birthday in the early years of our relationship and it was awesome. IT made them cry they loved it so much! All you need is to know what type of animal it was and have a few photos for the company to reference. Also the one I linked below donates some of the money back to a shelter!


A star

I have not purchased ones of these before, but my sister/ family has revived one, and Fuck I want one for myself ( but like not from myself ya know.) I am absolutely fascinated with outer space and stars so it kind of is right up my alley. It was awesome, it told you the coordinated, you could name it and there was a bunch of stuff with it. So you know if your partner or person you care about is into that I think this would be an awesome gift. I don’t remember where the one my sister received was from but I found one websites that look pretty cool.


A Star map

Continuing on with my astronomy theme here, but you can literally get a picture of the stars on any significant day. Birthday? you bet you can get that! Wedding night? For sure. And it is over the location you pick which is awesome! I think it is cute to get the nigh sky the day they were born, but that is just me. I have linked a whole ton that are found on etsy!


A care package

I feel like a care package can be such a personal thing and you can do it yourself! I have made a few of these and the people who have revived them loved it. There are also companies that do make little care packages to which is nice if you are a busy person or time just escapes you. I personally like going and making my own cause then I am picking out the stuff and it is extra personal.

Alcohol or coffee or tea or something they will drink

Sometimes beverages are the best gift and buying someone something they may not buy themselves is always nice. Get them a fancier bottle of wine or a bottle of hard alcohol that they might not get often. If they don’t drink alcohol then maybe grab them some fancier coffee or tea. These seem simple but I like receiving stuff like this. It means I don’t have to go out and get it myself and I will usually use it if not use it when people come over.

Photo by Kaboompics .com on Pexels.com

Anything home made

maybe it is their favorite cookies or dessert. Maybe planning an extravagant meal you get to make them. Either way I am sure that it will mean so much to them having that personal touch. I like to make my homemade taco seasoning and put it in a jar for people. I have also made steak rubs that have turned out awesome.


but not just any socks get food socks. I literally just found these while compiling my list and I want the all. Like everyone needs socks right? but no one wants to buy socks, and these just happen to be the best looking socks ever! Also probably not the most meaningful gift BUT they are pretty awesome!

These ideas I tried to make more general but really maybe the person you are buying for wouldn’t like any of these things? In all honesty just try and get something that they will use and like. Give yourself enough time to find it because there is a good chance that you will need to order it online and shipping is a bitch. If you can’t think of anything, take them out for a nice meal. We all need food and not having to think about it or cook it is amazing.

Happy Valentine’s day!


So it is that time for another blog post, and I think the hardest thing about writing blog posts is figuring out what to write. I decided today I would write about why I started devan.smiles.com.

I have been told throughout my life that I am a generally positive person. as I have grown older I would say I am less positive because you know the state of the world (climate change, patriarchy, you know shit that gets you angry.) I also live a very privileged life ( being white and being given opportunities that not everyone has.) I know that I should use my place of privilege to change what I can.

On the flip side, I don’t like controversy. I get really uncomfortable and I am not witty. I am unable to think on my toes and if I get upset I just start crying ( thanks mom for that awesome gene.) I know that even though it makes me uncomfortable, I still need to push back and stand up for the people who don’t necessarily have a voice or are marginalized.

I by no means am perfect at this, fuck it is a constant battle in my head and heart of why didn’t I say something.

But this is why I started Devan smiles. it gives me a space to start acting on that privilege (haven’t gotten too into it yet.) This space allows me to slowly ease into using my voice. I can write about it get, get my facts straight, and feel confident in the knowledge that I have. Then maybe I can take down some fucker that tries to come at me without just turning into a mess of tears and mumbles.

Will every post be about some controversial topic? hell No! it is exhausting taking on all the worlds problems. I can barley handle one at a time whiteout being like fuck it I’m just going to lay in bed till the end of time. SO there will be some when I can muster up the brain power for them. Will I get some facts wrong? YES, it is almost impossible for me to have them straight all the time. Like I said I come from a place of privilege and I can easily overlook something that others might not. So I want it to be know that I want feedback if I have something wrong. Start the conversation so I can learn, just don’t be an ass about it.

So that is why I started this blog. I haven’t really used it for what intended yet, but I will, I just have to build up that courage and write it out!