In My Own Moccasins: A Memoir of Resilience by Helen Knott

It has been a hot minute since I have read a book, but I have finally finished one again and here is the book review!

The latest book I read was In My Own Moccasins: A Memoir of Resilience by Helen Knott. In my personal goal of reading more books that are by diverse authors, I was pointed to this book by a friend and I am so glad that I got to read it.

A little bit about the author, Helen is Nehiyaw and Dene-Zaa woman. This book follows her journey of dealing with addictions and trauma to finding her roots in the Indigenous communities that she came from.

This book is divided into three parts, each dealing with a different part of her life. The first part is her addiction and all the trauma she had gone through. Honestly, when I was reading this part it was hard to read and was heartbreaking. She explains how she is feeling while she was high and drunk and her thought process. She eludes to her past rapes but does not get into them so much in this section ( later on she tells a bit more about them).

I think this book was such a good demonstration of the intergenerational trauma and hardships that indigenous people face all the time. Helen at one point even mentioned how going to a peyote ceremony goes against everything that she grew up believing. I think this is because her mother was Catholic and was told that Indigenous traditions were bad (way to go colonialism). I am guessing this is from one of the many horrendous things Canada did to the indigenous peoples.

This book really deep dives into a first hand account of a person dealing with trauma and addiction. This is a good chunk of the book so be prepared.

Spoiler alert
Helen eventually gets help by connecting with her roots and working through the traumatic events of her life. It really brings me joy when I read a book and an Indigenous person reconnects with their culture that was ripped away from them.

In the few books that I have read, all which have dealt with an Indigenous woman reconnecting with their culture, They have all had such a spiritual connection and it is amazing.

Overall I really liked this book. It helped me see the world through someone else’s eyes. I give this book a 5 star review. It was really well written and the story really flowed well together.

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Until next time!

TILLY BY MONIQUE GRAY SMITH

I got this book from the library because it was marked as an indigenous author. I want to try and read more indigenous authors to learn their stories.

Honestly I havent had much luck when I go to the library and wonder around to find books. The past few times I have done that I walk out with a few books to try to read and I can’t even make it past the first few pages.

So this time when I went to the library I grabbed a few books, one of them being Tilly. It is a shorter book (~200 pages) so I figured I could push myself to finish it even if I could not get into it. Well I was able to get into the book! I am so proud of myself.

Tilly follows the life of Tilly, a young Cree, Lakota, and Scottish girl. The story moves through her life in Canada and ultimately takes you on a journey.

Like I said this is a short book, so you don’t get super in depth with Tilly but you get enough of a glimpse to grow attached to some of the people.

I learnt a lot in this book, not just about another person’s life but about different aboriginal cultures and aspects that I didn’t know about.

I didn’t think that I was going to love this book in the beginning but I ended up loving it and really becoming attached to Tilly.

I highly recommend this book if you just want a quick read that doesn’t make you think to hard. It took me on an emotional journey and I loved it.