I’M STILL HERE BLACK DIGNITY IN A WORLD MADE FOR WHITENESS BY: AUSTIN CHANNING BROWN

Another book down! And now I am starting to get the books that everyone was reading when the Black Lives Matter movement was at its peak (btws there are still things going on and there is still the fight against racism check out my blog post about it)

On my list of many books by black author I am glad I got to read this one first. It was a short book, but was so concise.

So a little bit about Austin Channing Brown, She is a writer, media producer, and speaker. Her career is amazing and really just leaves me inspired. If you have the time look her up, I think she is an amazing person and I am so glad that she does the work that she does.

OK so onto the book. This book is Austin’s encounters with racism at different stages of her life. You start out in her childhood and how she grapples with living in a predominantly white neighborhood. Eventually you make it up to adulthood and how Austin embraces her blackness and is out in the world fighting racism.

Even though this book was short, it was good. Austin brought many things that I did not consider to light. One of the things I just need to quote.

I am not impressed that slavery was abolished or that Jim Crow ended. I feel no need to pat America on the back for these “achievements”. This is how it always should have been. Many call it progress, but I do not think it is praiseworthy that only within the last generation did America reach the baseline for human decency.

I can’t tell you what page that was on because it was not on the screen capture, but really that quote just really drove home this issue. Racism should not even be a thing, but it is and we should not be congratulating people on treating others with kindness. That should be the standard.

Another thing that I never really thought of was basically airing your past racist tendencies to Black people. Basically looking for forgiveness or that it is “ok”. They don’t want to hear you confessions, show them you are better by doing better now. What is in the past is in the past.

Overall this was a great book. It is short and shows a whole lifetime of dealing with racism. Austin brough many great points and I think this would be a great book to read for anyone. Definitely a 5 star book.

So yea def a good read and cannot wait to read more and learn more! Let me know in the comments what books you have been reading and what you have learnt from them!

Next week I will be writing about my closet and how it has changed so keep your eyes peeled for that!

until next time!

BAD BLOOD BY: JOHN CARREYROU

Finally, my last book from the back log of books that I read over the past month!

I read this book firstly based on its title. It just intrigued me. Once I figured it out that it was about a silicon valley start-up, I immediately knew which company it was about only because my friend had made a reference to Elizabeth Holmes last year and I had to google her.

So if you haven’t figured it out this book is all about Theranos. How it started all the way up to how it ended. It did not end well and there is still legal stuff going on with this company just a FYI.

This book is written by the NYT journalist who started the story about how terrible Theranos was. This book is very interesting because it goes through different accounts of ex-employees and their stories of what happened behind closed doors.

While I was reading this book I truly was like how in the fuck as they able to do this?? I literally could not wait till I got to the end of the book and found out what ended it for the company.

When I say this book is good, I mean it. It gives you that feeling like “Ha! you deserve everything that is coming to you…assholes.” So you know a very satisfying read.

As a testament of this book, I saw that it was going to be returned to the library soon ( ebook probs) so I was like “I have to finish this book!” And I did, in one day. I took a whole Sunday and just read the book until it was finished. I would say that is a hard task if the book doesn’t peak your interest, at least for me it is. So the book peaked my interest, which can be hard.

I would not call it a “thrilling” book but you do want to make it to the end to see what happened. Like did the authorities catch them or did someone rat them out?

Overall it is a great book, I quite enjoyed it.

Five star rating!

For now I have fallen off reading. I am trying to read more about racism and everything to do with it, but apparently so is everyone else ( There is quite the waitlist at the library for a lot of books by black authors on racism). So I don’t know when I will have another review to write, but I will 100% have blog posts for my more regular content!

29 things that I learnt from my 29 years

Hello! look at me go, two blog posts in one week! I am really making up for lost time! But in all seriousness, I had planned to post this one the week before my birthday (oops). When that time came I didn’t have my list together nor did I have the motivation to write anything.

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So this weekend I drank 3 coffees and put in the work. At first I was like I have learnt so much in my 29 year ( like how to be a human) that I would have no problem making a list of 29 things. Then I got to thinking, I want to make this better then just things that most people know. I want to make this a list of things that will benefit people.

So here you go 29 things that I have learnt in my 29 years.

  1. Your worth is not based on your looks

You worth has never been about how you look but for some reason that is how I was raised.

2. When people say you can’t do something it is showing their limits not yours.

I have been told many times that I can’t do things. Well I can and the only thing stopping me is myself. Just because others can’t do something doesn’t mean you can’t… prove it to them.

3. Material goods won’t make you happy

This one I learnt the hard way. You can have as much shit as you want and you might feel a temporary happiness but it will soon go away.

4. Don’t worry about what others thing of you

honestly if you care more about what others think then how you feel you won’t find happiness. DO YOU BOO. others opinion don’t matter.

5. You have to give respect to get respect

you have to start off giving respect. Once they start disrespecting you then you should peace out. Also respect you elders is Bullshit, they need to respect you too.

6. Don’t let the fear of others thoughts stop you from living your life

don’t be scared to wear a bikini because of what others might think. other probably don’t care and if they do they are a piece of SHIT. This also goes for other things you might be holding back on.

7. Ask dumb questions

if you are thinking the dumb question there are probably others who think it too. Also if it helps you understand something better is it really a dumb question?

8. Own up to your mistakes

I learnt this one earlier in my life. So what you fucked up. Everyone does at some point, we are all learning.

9. All daunting things can be done

you don’t get everything done all at once. It takes many little steps to get to that goal.

10. Move your body

move it everyday. be it stretching, walking, or yoga just move it.

11. Listen to your body

don’t push yourself further then you can physically can go. It won’t end well.

12. Think outside the box

people who think outside of the box or go above and beyond are the ones that have amazing ideas / projects. I was always jealous of those people before I figured this out.

13. The worst they can say is no

I always think of this when I am doing/ asking something. If I am nervous or scared I think the worst they can say is no.

14. Crying doesn’t make you weak

growing up I always though crying made you look weak but it doesn’t. it shows that you feel things which is a human trait, why hide it?

15. Listen to your gut

your intuition is such a strong thing. make sure you listen to it. It can save you a lot of time and trouble.

16. Speak kindly to yourself

I use to never speak kindly to myself. I would tear myself down all the time. Why? I am a Human and I am the one human I am around all the time. I don’t speak to my friends like that so why am I doing it to myself?

17. Don’t take yourself too serious

sometimes you have to laugh at yourself. I do a lot of dumb shit, and i am not embarrassed of it. I just laugh and remember not to take myself too seriously.

18. You don’t have to do what society tells you

if you know me you know I am all about this one. Just because society tells me I should do something doesn’t mean I have to. I actually will probably do a 180 and run to the complete opposite.

19. Let yourself feel things

feel things because it is so mentally and physically freeing. You lean so much about yourself when you allow yourself to feel.

20. Talking is a powerful tool

words are one of the more important ways we communicate and it is a powerful thing. Always be conscious about what you are saying and how you are saying it.

21. Sometimes you have to take a risk

risks can be scary but sometime they are worth it. If you feel that it is worth it take that risk.

22. Invest in yourself

if you know that something will make you happy or make you feel better, you should invest in it. The initial cost will be worth it if it helps you get to a better place.

23. Be weird

everyone is weird in their own way. Just because you may not be what society deems as “normal” doesn’t mean you are not awesome. Fuck what society tells us. No one is the ideal person NO ONE!

24. Make time for yourself

always make time for yourself. If it is self care or just being a vegetable on the couch for a few hours. You need it! You cannot pour from an empty cup.

25. Don’t get lost in comparison

don’t compare yourself to others. You cannot see what they are hiding or what they went through to get to where they are.

26. Be kind

always try to be kind even if the other person is being a twatwaffle. The world needs more kindness.

27. Give it your best

your best might very from situation to situation but if you believe you are doing your best that is all that matters.

28. The answer is always no if you don’t ask

always ask, you never know what the result will be.

29. Question things

sometimes asking why is the most freeing thing. When someone has to break down why they do something it can show you a lot.

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So there you have it 29 things that I have learnt in my 29 years! I hope that you got some paradigm shifting notions from it. Let me know if you did or some things that you have learnt in you lifetime! I am very excited to make a whole new list for my 30 things in 30 years, I better start working on it now so It will actually be ready for the week of my birthday!